When eye has seen and ear has heard

eyeI’m done. Done with seeing things that hurt me, alter me, lessen me. Done with watching train wrecks for fun. Or laughing at what’s crude, being amused at what’s mean. I’m done thinking about turning away, switching the channel, leaving the theater—and then not following through. Or even worse, not thinking about it at all.

I’m over it, this poison I’m hearing. Over the filth that pours out my TV and iPod (and out my own friends’ mouths).  Over stories I’m invited to hear, juicy forbidden secrets or the butchering of some girl’s character. I’m over the disgusting way my gender is described, referred to, sung about. And the way I’ve gotten used to it.

I’m sick about the way I was tricked. How I somehow absorbed the stink, getting comfy with the culture. How seeing this or hearing that became part of me. I’m sick that I didn’t feel sick at first, that I didn’t notice the change. That I listened when the enemy said, “No biggie; your faith is strong, so enjoy! You’ll be unaffected.”

But I’m on to him now, the deceiver. I’m on to his strategy of dulling my senses. Of making wrong seem harmless, of making wrong seem fun. I’m on to his twisted plan for God’s girl—me—to lose sight of the path. I’m on to his plan for God’s girl—me—to miss the Spirit’s voice. But I’m also on to Truth, an offer from Jesus to clean up this mess.

So I’m taking it, His promise to sharpen my senses. I’m taking the past and letting it go. I’m taking this lesson and getting wiser. And by God’s grace, I’m taking the road to new places: fulfilling, good, exciting places. I’m taking it in, this fresh, sweet life untainted by the world. And I’m loving the glory it brings Him.


“Fix your thoughts on what is true and honorable and right and pure and lovely and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me—everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you.”

Philippians 4:8-9


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4 thoughts on “When eye has seen and ear has heard

  1. Stacey says:

    As I was reading, I thought of Eve. Seems the devil is still up to his old tricks that worked thousands and thousands of years ago. Deception and trickery, using words and thoughts to bring in doubt. Why do we always fall for it? Love you and your realness!

  2. Lucky Hoomes says:

    Ava, thank you for the reminder that satan is always trying to trip us up by deceiving us. We, as Christians, must allow God to speak to us though His Word and then act on it.

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